Can't Weight Any Longer

6 weeks done!

2011-04-28T21:13:00.000-07:00

I was such a good girl for the past 6 weeks with my non weight bearing treatment for my ankle. I purchased three scooters - a bit overkill, I know, but well worth it. One for downstairs, one for upstairs. The scooters are too heavy to carry up and down and flying solo as much as I do, I physically can't do it alone. I do the 'boot scoot boogie' up and down my stairs on my bum. The third scooter was for my car - again, the cadillac scooter I mainly used was too heavy for me to lift up and down by myself, so I got a light weight scooter to get in and out of the trunk while I'm out.

I have to say that I am a HUGE fan of these knee scooters and highly recommend them. The crutches are a pain to deal with and maneuver, and this is a welcome rest to the sore wrists and pits. My only problem is my knee. I have a Cinderella knee from being on it all the time and my leg has atrophied by almost 3 inches!! I look very similar to this... remember this commercial???

So, I was all pumped to get the MRI findings from my Dr today and was handed 2 huge helpings of bad news. First off, the MRI showed ZERO improvement. Nothing, nada - exactly the same. *sigh* That alone knocked the wind out of me. To think that all that work that I had done for the past 6 weeks was for nothing. I mentioned I was a good girl, but I mean it. I'm confident in knowing I gave it 100% effort! So that alone sent me on my spiral downward and I wasn't quite prepared for the next bit of news.

My Doc was leaving the practice and moving to a new place where my insurance wasn't accepted. So this man I grew to trust and had complete confidence in to cut me open and break my bones was now no longer my surgeon. I have to find someone new who I don't have that history with.

Additional problems are that this lack of physical activity has obviously impeded my weight loss efforts and I'm up about 7 lbs. One thing I've learned about myself is that my moods definitely coincide with that serotonin high you get from a quick jog, so a bit of depression has started to set in. Today's popping of my balloon of hope didn't help matters.

So, what happens from here? I search for a new doc and explore my options. But I definitely know that surgery is on the menu coming up soon...

Latest Update!

2011-03-19T10:55:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've updated my profile. Here is the latest with my injury. I had an MRI done and received the findings from the test. It is confirmed that I have OCD of the talus. My tibia is bruised and my lesion on the talus is 14 mm!! That's a little over a half an inch!! That's a giant butter bean on a ritz cracker. A penny on a flattened marshmallow. It's big y'all and it's bad, bad news.

I was scheduled to see the Doc at the end of the month, but Tuesday received a call saying to get my rump into the office ASAP to discuss treatment. Saw the Doc on Thursday and my options are OATS surgery or complete rest. If it were that simple, I think I'd go for surgery, however, the Doc made the surgery option very bleak. The lesion is on the lateral side of the talus.

In order for the Doc to get to the area, he would have to break my fibula and drill out the lesion. It would be filled with either a synthetic plug or from a cadaver. (*shudder*) There is a huge risk that I may reject the plug. Plus the location of the lesion is on the edge ridge of the talar dome and matching those with the plugs is akin to matching fingerprints... they are unique to you. A bad match may lead to arthritis in the future. After that, he would fuse the fibula back together with a metal plate and screws.

That alone isn't easy and carries risks, but it doesn't end there. I would be in a hard cast for 2 weeks. That means the 7 inch incision would have a risk of infection as well as the infection possibly getting into the bone. Then, I would be moved to my air cast/boot for another 6 weeks without bearing weight. PHEW!!

Option 2 - complete rest for at least 6 weeks is what my Doctor said he would personally do if it were him. This is what I have chosen to do, with the knowledge that surgery may still be down the road. Now, I've been on boot therapy and non weight bearing activity for 8 weeks, but I haven't been 100% resting. Our current familial situation isn't helping the matters seeing that I'm flying solo for most of the day caring for our 2 boys, Rowdy and Raucous. This option means a complete overhaul of what I've been doing. 100% zero weight on this foot. It never touches the ground. I have cute little knee scooter to get me around along with crutches to help.

Have you ever tried to go the the bathroom on one foot? Really? Just try it for once and tell me how you did. Furniture has been moved and we've had a family meeting to discuss the importance of Mommy getting better without surgery. My cute little knee scooter is fun to get around and has given me a new lease on life. The crutches are hard.

So what have I resigned to do? I need to put Weight Watchers on the back burner. That means, I'm not going to be super strict. I will still track and feel like I need to - it's the only way for me to have some control in this chaos! But, I am hearing murmurings of dear friends offering to prepare us meals occasionally. So if I only have 5 points left and someone brings me delicious lasagna, I'm going to eat the lasagna, but not GORGE. I will still make smart choices, but won't be vigilant like I wish to be.

I'm also having to put aside some (MOST) of my analities. The floors will get messy. My pantry won't be straight and my house won't be super clean. But I will be getting better and that's all that matters.

I will continue to post updates. Feel free to contact me if anyone else is struggling with weight loss and injuries. I'd love to hear how other's have overcome their struggles with injuries.

Ho Hum Tuesday Tune In

2011-03-01T12:33:00.000-08:00

So.... it slowly ticks by... My weigh in for this week is (drumroll inserted here)

196.4

That's a huge loss of .2 lbs!

*please note use of excessive sarcasm*

Okay, okay... I've had a few hurdles and I did lose a pat of butter, but I am wishing it was so much more. I'm still boot bound and will FINALLY hear my prognosis this Friday. I am happy to say that I'm starting my swimming routine this week. I tried the water aerobics class, but since I live in a very large 55+ community, the class was more like a reenactment of Cocoon and the class was catered to that demographic and not much of a burn. (I hope not to offend!)

I'm not an awesome swimmer and have been ordered to not use my feet... at all! Yesterday, I had my first try at swimming laps with a water weight between my legs to keep me afloat. Lemme tell y'all.. it was hard as shiznit! How does one swim without using their feet?!? It was a hard workout and I could only hang for about 20 minutes, but hopefully will see that increase as I keep trying.

I'd love to see my weight loss this week be more than tenths of pounds! Is that so much to ask?

Trusting the Process

2011-02-17T08:07:00.001-08:00

Sorry to be MIA, but there hasn't been much to report. In fact, it's been downright nerve wracking. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I'm having issues with my ankle.

Without the long story, basically what I have is a lesion on my ankle. After 3 weeks of rest, I'm still boot bound for a while in an attempt to avoid surgery and start physical therapy today.

This also means that all weight bearing exercise is still out. I'm going crazy!! I've been released to swim and plan to start that next week, but I still miss the sweat from my workouts. No running, no walking, no *gasp* Zumba (choking back tears).

As you can imagine, the scale is barely inching along. I had the lofty goal of 194 and in 3 weeks, have yet to reach it. The prednisone did as expected and slowed things down, but at least I didn't gain! My past 3 weigh ins are as follows:

First week (on prednisone): down .2 197.6

Second week: down .8 196.8

Third week: down .2 196.6

I'm frustrated as can be to not see the scale moving, even though I've not missed any tracking or have cheated.

What has changed is my attitude. With these little increments ticking away, it would be so easy to skip weigh ins and not waste $$, but I need the support, the accountability, and the encouragement. I'm trusting the process. In these few weeks, I've recognized the importance of exercise for my body type. I'm envious of those who can lose and not have to move, but with my muscle mass, I've learned that I NEED to move to burn.

This week will probably result in the same tiny tick, but my hope is to hit it full force next week with the swimming! I'm trusting the process, and trusting myself in the process.

Weigh In

2011-01-23T17:58:00.000-08:00

Sunday morning was my weigh in day and I am so pleased with the results. I weighed in at 197.8!!! That's a 3.8 lb loss from last week. These next few weeks will be challenging since I am on activity hiatus, so I must focus on the calories in and not succumb to too much snacking.

I am very happy and have a lofty goal of 194 this week. That would be another 3.8 lb loss, but that would put me at my first 5% since entering the program again! My new leader said she uses her 29 points plus to get in her good health guidelines (fruits/veggies, dairy, oils, etc) and uses the 49 extra for anything above that. I think that is a great plan and may try that this week.

Anyone have tips on non weight bearing aerobic exerise?

Minor Set Back

2011-01-22T09:41:00.000-08:00

Ya know, I strive for being unique. My mother once told me that anyone can buy a cubic zirconia and that I should be like a rare diamond - precious and valuable. Of course, she was referring to my youthful, boycrazed days, but I think it still applies to me today.

Friday I went to the podiatrist because I was having problems with my ankle. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I had to stop my Vegas half marathon training due to ankle pain. What I should have done was see the Dr. right then. I found out that I had OCD. Yes, I know I have the typical acronym of OCD (- just look at my other blog!) This OCD stands for Osteochondritis Dissecans and is pretty hard to come by. It affects every 10 - 30 people in 100,000 and those with ankle pain make up about 4%. In layman's terms - it's a lesion on my bone due to deteriorating cartilage. FUN! Over the past few weeks, I noticed I couldn't run a mile without severe pain. Even my walking mileage decreased once pain set in. It was time to get this taken care of.

I took my first dose of Prednisone today for my 3 week therapy. I can't have the cortisone shots since I'm in that 3% that have reactions the steroids. SEE! I told you I'm unique! So that worries me quite a bit with all the weight gain scare that comes with Prednisone.

And top it off with a dose of ZERO ACTIVITY for the next 3 weeks. I am cleared to swim, just not kick while swimming - explain that one to me! I can also, barely walk to get my son from school. The Dr. was pretty hesitant about this. The only option if this and physical therapy doesn't work is surgery. I REALLY don't want to go there so I will follow orders and be a good girl.

I'm very disappointed, but still committed to the process. These kind of hiccups are what put me back in this place to begin with and I must trust the process, even if this situation might cause a temporary gain. This is what I need to learn and I see that so clearly now. Any suggestions for non weight bearing exercise?

Luvin' the New Program

2011-01-21T21:27:00.001-08:00

So, I went back to my meetings on Jan. 10th. I was geared up and ready to start on the first Monday of the year and I had contracted either some stomach bug or food poisoning, so I didn't get my butt into the meeting that Monday, but I had an awesome loss that week - thank you water weight. Despite that initial kickoff setback, I still tracked! YES - I even tracked the chicken noodle soup and saltines! Mind you, I was NOWHERE near meeting my Weight Watcher points plus target those first few days, but it was a great opportunity to learn the new program online. I am SO diggin' the new iphone app, too!

So I went in on the following Monday and started off at 204, y'all! ICK! Back into the abyss. I'm not surprised since I was still hungover from my intentional holiday food binge. I wanted to go out with a bang. Good news was that I was down 3 lbs from my previous home weigh in.

Had my first two weeks under my belt and weighed in this last Sunday - down 2.4. That means I'm only 1.6 away from entering 'Onederland' again. That is this week's goal and I have weigh in on Sunday. This year is the year for permanent changes. I'm DONE with so many things - and this cycle is one of the things that I will be DONE with.

This new program is so awesome. I am loving that fruit is free and that I can eat ALL my activity points without capping it at 4. It's a much healthier approach with what I personally am wanting to accomplish with weight loss. I started this because of my family's disposition to diabetes. The fact that the focus has shifted from calories to protein and carbs is much more in line with my goals and I love it!

Fellow WW-er's, weigh in on your thoughts of the new program!

New Year Tuesday Tune In!!!

2011-01-04T10:03:00.001-08:00

Happiest of New Years to everyone! It's been AGES since I last checked in and it's been a heck of a year. First off - time for some reality checks. Have I obtained my goal? FAIL! Did I reach my resolution from 2010 for my running goal? FAIL!

I could give excuses, but it all boils down to not doing it. I've learned over the past few months that I truly am an emotional eater. As mentioned in previous posts from last year - we had some struggles and my only silver lining at the end of the day was that warm cookie and for that brief moment, I found bliss. Pretty sickening, eh? I should have found bliss at the end of my run or from a passionate hug from my husband. But he was kicking his own tires so we were in the same boat. Either way, what a huge eye opener for me!

What did I accomplish? I've learned that thru my years of gymnastics (15 years of hard tumbling to be exact), I can't push my body like I wish. It seems as if my warranty ran out after this past birthday in October. My ankles snap, crackle and pop as I walk down my steps in the morning - enough to wake the kids up! My knees aren't quite failing, but are definitely on weak side. I've had chronic back problems for years and the past few months, my back has gone out more times than I would have liked. My youthful dreams of being Nadia Comaneci wrecked havoc on my body and I've learned to be wise and not push thru the pain, but listen to my body so I don't take myself completely out of commission.

The running would have been met had I followed thru with my goal of running a half marathon this past December. I got about 6 weeks into the training and had to abandon it due to ankle pain. So I've realized I'm not a distance runner. I'm not completely crushing my dream, but am putting it aside until I'm more fit to accomplish it. The added weight did NOT help in the training process. I'm planning on revisiting this once I'm back to goal weight.

Another accomplishment I've made is that I have found a new passion in Zumba. I love to dance and feel the music - what an easy workout without feeling like you did a monotonous treadmill run. Plus the calorie burn is awesome!!

I purchased a Body Bugg to measure my caloric burn. I don't care for the calorie tracking as much as I thought I would, so I'm planning on sticking with the new WW's program to track my calories. Then maybe I'll enter in the plan on Body Bugg every few days or so.

So, in a nutshell - I'm back to square one. I haven't gained to my starting weight, but have once again left "Onederland" if only briefly. My goals I'm setting are realistic and attainable. When I started this whole journey, there wasn't an epiphany moment - just a choice to do it. That's where I'm at now. There's no passionate drive - just a choice. And I know I can do it! What are your goals?

A bit behind

2010-07-30T14:48:00.000-07:00

Okay - so my Tuesday Tune in is waaaayyy behind, but I've wanted to update you nonetheless. What a busy week with recording deadlines, Kindergarten graduation, and preparations for upcoming travel! Needless to say, I still had to stick to the program. The scale this week read 192.6 - a loss of 2.4 lbs. Since then, the scale hasn't moved, so AGAIN I am at a stall. The zig zagging of calories was working well, but I believe it is now battling with woman issues and bloating.

I earned 42.4 Activity points between running and Zumba. I know I should stand proud of my 2.4 lb loss, but in all honesty, the numbers went up this week. I can only think that I'm not eating enough calories to match my activity. Here's my food journal for this week:

Wed, Jul. 21, 2010
Breakfast:
..Banana Nut Cheerios 1.9pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
Lunch:
..Mcdonalds 11.2pts. (thanks kids!)
Dinner:
..Taco shells-2 1.1pts.
..Beef-96%ff 4oz 1.7pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 0.7pts.
..Corn Relish-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.2pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Rice a Roni-1/2 cup 2.0pts.
Snacks:
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Strawberries 0.7pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 22.0pts.

Thu, Jul. 22, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 0pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 0pts.
Lunch:
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Corn Relish-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Taco shells-2 1.1pts.
..Rice a Roni-1/2 cup 2.0pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Chocolate Vitatop 1.3pts.
Dinner:
..Chili-1 cup 6.9pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Chips 2.6pts.
Snacks:
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.

Total: 20.0pts.

Fri, Jul. 23, 2010
Breakfast:
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp 0.1pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
Lunch:
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 2.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.
..Oscar Mayer turkey- 51 g 0.9pts.
..Baked lays BBQ 2.2pts.
..Chocolate Vitatop 1.3pts.
Dinner:
..Café Rio 14.0pts.
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
Snacks:

Total: 25.2pts.

Sat, Jul. 24, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp 0.1pts.
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 1.1pts.
Lunch:
..Baked lays BBQ 3.3pts.
..Whitewheat Bun 1.4pts.
..Tyson patty 4.3pts.
..Sargento rf colby cheese 0.6pts.
..Pickle-dill 0.0pts.
..Chocolate Vitatop 1.3pts.
Dinner:
..Tikka Masala sauce 1/2 3.0pts.
..Broccoli 0.0pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Chicken 4pts.
Snacks:
..Edamame 1pts.
..Candied Pecans-28 g 1.5pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.

Total: 25.8pts.

Sun, Jul. 25, 2010
Breakfast:
..Pancakes 3.0pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Syrup/SF- 1/4 cup 0.4pts.
Lunch:
..Ball park Turkey dog 0.9pts.
..Whitewheat hot dog 1.1pts.
Dinner:
..Cheesy chicken enchiladas 8.3pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Mon, Jul. 26, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
Lunch:
..Chipotle-1 taco 17pts.
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
Dinner:
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
Snacks:
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.

Total: 21.8pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

So I'm guessing I'm not eating enough if 22 points is an approximate equivalent to 1200 calories. My journal this week will be sparse - I didn't track Tuesday or Thursday. Once the scale wasn't moving on Thursday, I decided to have a relaxed day to maybe confuse my system. We'll see how it goes over the weekend and if the scale moves. I've got some busy, busy days ahead, but I realize that my goal of breaking the 190's may NOT happen by my trip, but I'm okay with that! I'm working hard and am seeing progress. If not on the scale, it's definitely showing up on my body. I've had 2 people comment on my tiny hiney, so it's paying off. August is the month I'd like to break the 180's or at least get close. Let's see if that happens.

"If you want a little behind - Leave a little behind..."

Tuesday Tune In - 2 days late!

2010-07-22T23:02:00.000-07:00

So, I'm a bit behind on my progress. So this week, I lost 4.4 pounds which is great after last weeks stall. My current weight is 195 and I am so glad to see the numbers on the scale continue to fall. I earned 38 activity points this week with my Zumba and running.

I am trying a new thing I read about this week, which is zig zagging my calories. The idea is that when you constantly each the same number of calories, your body goes into "starvation mode" and holds onto the weight. By tricking your body with random days of a calorie spike, you see the numbers move more. This is a similar idea from the Body for Life diet which is 6 days of strict dieting and one day of fun. I used this a lot when I started WW's, saving my 35 extra points for one day. That worked for a while, but I found that after my Tuesday weigh in, the next day the numbers went up from my controlled binge.

I found a few websites that had converted WW's points into calories, which is not WW endorsed and may be totally bogus, but it's a guestimation anyway. So, I'm continuing the 22 points daily base with allowance for activity extras when I'm hungry. Then 2 days a week, I up the points to 31 and 35, so my Tuesday play day is gone away. And so far it's working as the scale continues to move.

Now I still have to lose 9 lbs in 12 days to reach my goal, which is completely unrealistic and equates to a negative caloric intake, so my hopes aren't too high, but I'm not giving up yet. I did lose 4.4 lbs this week, so crazy things could happen!

Here is this week's Journal:

Wed, Jul. 14, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.2pts.
..Oatmeal-maple & brown sug 2.8pts.
..Pb-oatmeal jar 0.5pts.
Lunch:
..Smart 1's chic Enchilada suiza 5.6pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Corn Relish-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
Dinner:
..Pizza hut 8pts.
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Craisins-2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..FF Rasp Dressing -2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Candied Pecans-28 g 2.2pts.
Snacks:
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 2.1 bonus points)

Thu, Jul. 15, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp 0.1pts.
Lunch:
..Chipotle-1 taco 10.0pts.
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
Dinner:
..Kraft Bals. Vin. -2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
..Whitewheat-2 slices 1.4pts.
..Corn on the cob-7" 1.0pts.
..Filet Mignon 5.3pts.
Snacks:
..Skinnycow cookies n cream 2.4pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 2.8 bonus points)

Fri, Jul. 16, 2010
Breakfast:
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp 0.2pts.
Lunch:
..Grimaldi's Pesto 2 slices 14.0pts.
Dinner:
..Grimaldi's Pesto 3 slices 21.0pts.
Snacks:
..Whitewheat-2 slices 1.4pts.

Total: 33.5pts. (minus 4.0 bonus points)

Sat, Jul. 17, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.8pts.
..Fiber 1 cottage cheese-1/2 c 1.0pts.
Lunch:
..Fries-3oz 3.3pts.
..Ball park Turkey dog 0.9pts.
..Orowheat sandwich thin 1.3pts.
Dinner:
..Bean w/ Bacon soup 7.3pts.
..Corn muffin Vitatop 1.3pts.
Snacks:
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.
..Banana Nut Cheerios 1.9pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.8pts.

Total: 21.5pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sun, Jul. 18, 2010
Breakfast:
..Whitewheat-1 slice 0.7pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp 0.1pts.
Lunch:
..Baked lays BBQ 4.4pts.
..Ball park Turkey dog 0.9pts.
..Orowheat sandwich thin 1.3pts.
Dinner:
..Smart 1's fettucini alfredo 8.6pts.
Snacks:
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.

Total: 20.2pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Mon, Jul. 19, 2010
Breakfast:
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.8pts.
..Banana Nut Cheerios 1.9pts.
Lunch:
..Natures own whole grain-1 slice 2.2pts.
..Oscar Mayer turkey- 51 g 0.9pts.
..Mayo-1/2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.
..Baked Doritos 2.3pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
Dinner:
..Spinach ravioli 7.2pts.
..Chicken 3pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 21.5pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

I'm an Addict!

2010-07-16T16:02:00.000-07:00

Not that kind - and not to food either. I've found a new love... Zumba Fitness!

So, here's a bit about me some of y'all may not know. I LOVE to dance. In High School, my friend and I ditched all the parties and typical hangs to hit the college clubs to dance. We could care less about the guys, about partying - we wanted to dance! We were the first ones there, the last to leave and only left the floor when slow songs played to get some water. I was the girl on the platforms. Yes, I'm a singer/performer, but I didn't get on the platforms for attention. I needed the space to get my jam on.

So I marry my husband - a drummer, who HATES to dance. His motto is: "I provide the beat so that others can dance." Oh, he's given in a few times and danced with me, but I could tell it was so painful for him. How a person can have each limb performing an entirely different rhythm, but can't translate that to dancing is beyond me, but back to the subject.

One of my goals, while losing my weight, was to try a Capoeira class - a martial arts, music infused dance class that would also use my gymnastic background. But after my many foot injuries (thanks to gymnastics), I left that dream in fear of really hurting myself. I was a bit bummed, I must admit.

So that's when I started running. I've been running since August of 2008 and have to admit that I'm bored. The treadmill is great for producing sweat, but is dreadfully ho-hum! I'm an outside runner, but this Vegas heat makes it near impossible to enjoy it. And you can run the indoor track until you start feeling akin to a hamster on a wheel. So bottom line is I have a love/hate relationship with running. Many times, I have to force myself to do it (like today), but I love the quick results and the activity points earned. I've officially hit a slump, which doesn't bode well for my 500 mile goal.

Onto Zumba Fitness... I recently visited a friend in Denver and she asked me to come along. OH.MY.WORD. I was instantly hooked. I don't think I stopped smiling the entire time! As soon as I got back home, I began my search for classes. I'm not a gym member, so I tried a few outside of the gym. Lemme tell you.. that was NOT the same class I attended. "Jazz Hands" don't exist in Zumba!

So, about a week or so ago, I decided to try a gym to see it they offered the morsel I tasted in Denver. I found my place - I would have joined that night after that class. It's fun, energetic, sexy and I don't feel like I'm working out, but the sweat to my navel tells me that I did.

All this to say, if you are in a workout rut - try something new. Go back to something you love. In this class, there are no limits. All sizes, kinds of people are in the class workin' it. Some with rhythm, and some....well... who kinda look like their stomping on bugs, but hey - they are sweating right there with me!

I'm officially addicted and love every minute of it!!!

Tuesday Tune In

2010-07-06T17:36:00.000-07:00

I weighed in today and had a loss this week - 4.8 lbs!!! I am back in 'One'derland and am feeling fine. Having this visit home in a few weeks is enough to keep me inspired to work hard to keep up the work. I am super excited and don't want to cross this threshold again. It's time to close this door permanently!

Here is my Journal for the week. I dropped my points down and made sure to exercise A LOT! Seemed to work!

Wed, Jun. 30, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
Lunch:
..Chipotle-1 salad 10.0pts.
..Costco Fro Yo 2.6pts.
Dinner:
..Chili-1 cup 4.6pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Cheese -1 Tbsp .5pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
Snacks:
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 2.5 bonus points)

Thu, Jul. 01, 2010
Breakfast:
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Lunch:
..Chili-1 cup 3.8pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.8pts.
..Peas- 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
Dinner:
..Steak 5pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Candied Pecans-28 g 2.2pts.
..Trader joes Rasp Vin-2 Tbsp 1.0pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Pears 0.5pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries 0.4pts.
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 1.9 bonus points)

Fri, Jul. 02, 2010
Breakfast:
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Bagel thin 1.5pts.
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
Lunch:
..Pears Trader Joes 0.6pts.
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Candied Pecans-28 g 2.2pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Cucumber 0.0pts.
..Trader joes Rasp Vin-2 Tbsp 1.0pts.
..Chicken 2pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
Dinner:
..Beef-96%ff 4oz 3.4pts.
..Whitewheat Bun 1.4pts.
..Corn on the cob-7" 1pts.
..Potato Salad 3.7pts.
..Sargento rf colby cheese 0.6pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 1.4 bonus points)

Sat, Jul. 03, 2010
Breakfast:
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14.0pts.
..McD's Kiddie Cone 1.0pts.
Dinner:
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Trader joes Rasp Vin-2 Tbsp 1.0pts.
..Candied Pecans-28 g 2.2pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Pears Trader Joes 0.6pts.
..Chicken 1.4pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
Snacks:
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 1.0 bonus points)

Sun, Jul. 04, 2010
Breakfast:
..Pancakes 3.5pts.
..Syrup/SF- 1/4 cup 0.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
Lunch:
..Corn tortilla 2.2pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Chicken 2pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
..Rice-1/2 cup 2.0pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Tortilla chips-1 oz. 2.6pts.
Dinner:
..Potato Salad 3.7pts.
Snacks:
..Chocolate Vitatop 1.3pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.8 bonus points)

Mon, Jul. 05, 2010
Breakfast:
..Fiber1 yogurt 0.2pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Lunch:
..Chipotle-1 taco 10.0pts.
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
Dinner:
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Watermelon 1 cup 0.8pts.
Snacks:
..Frigo Lt string cheese 1.4pts.
..Brazil Nuts-6 oz 1.0pts.

Total: 21.9pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Chuggin Along

2010-07-04T12:42:00.000-07:00

They say a picture is worth a thousand words... Well, I've heard of people posting inspiration pictures up all over their house to help them - so I finally did it!

I've taken photos and pasted them together on my computer and have placed them up around the house to help me remember where I was, where I am and where I should be. The picture above shows just that. I am going home to visit family in about 4 weeks. These are all pictures from 2008. The first is where I was at my RECORDED heaviest, but I know I was even heavier (see below). The 2nd is about where I am now, maybe a bit less. The 3rd is where I hope to be in 4 weeks and the last is my ultimate goal.

This one I call FAT FEAR!

Ugh! I hate even posting this, but there are a few pics in there where I KNOW I was in my 240's. 240's Y'all!!! That's just wrong!

This one is my THINSPIRATION

There are some repeats from above, but it works to see side by side. I've posted these on my phone, on my computer wallpaper, the fridge, the pantry, my closet - and just about tattooed it to my body!

I am still in the process of losing and have maintained my weight teetering on the cusp of ONEderland for about 3 months now. I've decided to kick it into full gear with a visit home to inspire me to be on track.

I'm still running and have accumulated 148 miles. I know that I will fall short of my 500 mile goal, but I'm still chugging along. I've been kicking the tires on possibly running a half marathon this December, but it really scares me to no end! That's still achievable if I run 2 miles a day everyday til the end of the year, but I'm not an everyday runner - my feet and knees won't hold up, but I'm still trying my best and haven't given up yet!

So, I'm still in the game, and continue to renew my commitment to lose this weight every day!

Wordless Wednesday

2010-06-17T12:08:00.000-07:00

Dusting off an old friend...

Hey - is anyone on WW's online? I saw the new option to add friends. If you are and want to befriend each other, email me privately and we can exchange WW user names and info!

Don't throw in the towel

2010-05-30T11:16:00.000-07:00

The cycle is common. You splurge one day and you throw in the towel for the remainder of the day and eat whatever - and you wind up right where you started. That cycle has to stop. That mentality of "I'm on program" or "I'm on a diet / I'm not on a diet" has to stop. It's not a diet - it's a change in your approach to food. Diets fail - you feel restricted and if you mess up, you want to give up.

It has to be a definite line drawn in the sand to make this change. Have I done it? Not quite yet. I'm still struggling with the "I've fallen off the wagon" thought process. Instead of focusing on goals and the scale and whether you're progress at the rate you desire, focus on just being cognizant of the changes you are making or have made.

I've changed the types of foods I eat. I regularly eat a high fiber diet. I try to make healthy options and when I don't, I try to control portion sizes. Focus on your day, meal by meal....bite by bite if you have to. It's okay to splurge or treat, but it's not okay to give up in the process. This is the cycle that, in me, must die!

So, tell me, what do you do when you've fallen off the proverbial wagon? How quickly do you get back on track? What makes you stay focused? I'd love to hear your thoughts.

Friday Food Find!!!

2010-05-28T10:04:00.000-07:00

So I found the best little sweetie treat. It's a sugar free Angel Food Cake made by Ann Marie's Bakery. It has 45 calories, 0 fat and 3 fiber - a whopping .3 point for 1/8th of the cake. I love, love it!

It is so super moist - you can't tell it's diet.

Top it off with some fresh strawberries and some Fat free whipped cream and you have a perfect 1.5 point dessert. I prefer the Reddi-Whip since it's points friendly.

For a total of 1.6 points, you can have a HUGE dessert! LOVE IT!!!!

Wordless Wednesday

2010-05-26T19:09:00.000-07:00

Tuesday Tune-In

2010-05-25T19:08:00.000-07:00

So this week went very well. I didn't advertise it, but my husband was in South Africa for 2 weeks, so the first week was filled with bored overeating, but after my Keepin' It Real post, I kicked it in high gear. I stuck to my exercise program and made sure to keep my tracking up.

My Weigh in Today was at exactly 200! That's an 8 lb loss after my aforementioned debacle.

My goal for this week is not a huge number - just to get into the 190's and to exercise.

Here's my Food Journal:
Mon, May. 24, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Pb-oatmeal jar 1.0pts.
..Oatmeal- cinn instant 2.8pts.
Lunch:
..Chicken & dumplins-1 cup 5.6pts.
..Popsicle sugar free 0.3pts.
Dinner:
..In-n-Out-protein 1/2 ff 15.3pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 28.0pts.

Sun, May. 23, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..English Muffin 1.3pts.
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Crouton 0.7pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
Lunch:
..Chicken & dumplins-1 cup 5.6pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
Dinner:
..Chicken & dumplins-1 cup 12.1pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
Snacks:
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Honey Mustard-2 Tbsp 0.4pts.

Total: 28.0pts.

Sat, May. 22, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Egg Substitute 0.6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..English Muffin 1.3pts.
Lunch:
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Ranch 2 Tbsp 2.2pts.
..Whitewheat Bun 1.4pts.
..WW's Colby cheese 1.0pts.
..Tyson patty 4.3pts.
..Fries-3oz 4.6pts.
..French's Onions-1 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Dinner:
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
..Smart taste pasta-1 c 3.3pts.
..Fancher sketti-2/3 cup 5.0pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 2.6 bonus points)

Fri, May. 21, 2010
Breakfast:
..Fiber 1 cottage cheese-1/2 c 1.0pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Fiber One-1/2 cup 0.5pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 0.5pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Lunch:
..Parmesan couscous-1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Tomatoes 3/4 cup 0.5pts.
..Chicken 5pts.
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 2.4pts.
..Ranch 2 Tbsp 2.2pts.
Dinner:
..Smart taste pasta-1 c 5.8pts.
..Fancher sketti-2/3 cup 7.5pts.
..Green Beans-1/2 cup 0.2pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 2.1 bonus points)
Ran 5.2 miles

Thu, May. 20, 2010
Breakfast:
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 0.5pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
..Egg 1.8pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Fiber 1 cottage cheese-1/2 c 1.0pts.
Lunch:
..Turkey sausage -4 oz 4.5pts.
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Ranch 2 Tbsp 2.2pts.
..Corn-2/3 cup 1.2pts.
Dinner:
..Tomatoes 3/4 cup 0.5pts.
..Zucchini 0.0pts.
..Whitewheat-2 slices 1.4pts.
..Parmesan Cheese 0.5pts.
..Parmesan Couscous-1 cup 3.8pts.
..Chicken 3.0pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.

Total: 27.5pts.
Ran 2 miles and Did 35 mins on Elliptical
and 5 mins on Versaclimber

Wed, May. 19, 2010
Breakfast:
..Egg 1.8pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 0.5pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
Lunch:
..Panda (rice & chic) 14pts.
Dinner:
..Turkey sausage 4.5pts.
..Green Beans-1/2 cup 0.2pts.
..Corn-2/3 cup 1.2pts.
..Strawberries 1.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 0.5pts.

Total: 28.0pts.
Ran 3 miles and 10 mins on Versaclimber

Tue, May. 18, 2010
Breakfast:
..Oatmeal- cinn instant 2.8pts.
..Pb-oatmeal jar 1.0pts.
Lunch:
..Lettuce 0.0pts.
..Ranch 2 Tbsp 2.2pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 2.4pts.
..Whitewheat-2 slices 1.4pts.
..Sara lee Turkey-51 g 1.0pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.
Dinner:
..Chili-1 cup 9.2pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 1.0pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp 0.4pts.
..Tortilla chips-1 oz. 2.6pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries 0.9pts.
..Sugar free angel food cake 0.3pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.

Total: 28.0pts.
Ran 3.2 miles

'Affordable' Chicken and Dumplins

2010-05-23T20:57:00.000-07:00

So I have modified my Mother In Law's incredible recipe for homemade Chicken and Dumplins to make it points friendly without breaking the point budget.

1 lb Chicken Breast (with or without skin - but remove skin before adding other ingred. The skin adds that broth-y flavor, but not necessary)
2 tubes Pillsbury Buttermilk Biscuits (value pack has the least points)

2 cans Campbells Cream of Chicken Soup
(either the Healthy or 99% Fat Free)
Salt and Pepper to taste

Boil the breasts in enough water to cover them until the chicken is tender. Add the 2 cans of soup and gradually tear the chicken into pieces.

Roll out each biscuit and cut into 3 or 4 pieces (I use a pizza cutter). Bring soup to a slow boil and gradually drop the dumplins in. Add salt and pepper and let simmer 30- 45 mins. Add water if needed.

This made me eight 1 cup servings at 5.6 points each. So filling and super tasty - a definite down south hit. You could serve this to company and they'd never know it was healthy.

Keeping it Real, Yo

2010-05-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

Just sit right back and you'll hear a tale
A tale of a fateful trip.....

That's how I feel. If you haven't realized by now, I am emoter. (she gasps whilst drawing her dainty wrist to her forehead *sigh*) Oh yeah, I can pour it on like the rest of em, but I'm sick of hearing excuses... my own excuses, so this is me owning up.

So, you've heard my emotional overeating woes from our financial stresses and now the Hubs is coming home from a 2 week gig in South Africa leaving me behind to wipe the behinds. WOE IS ME!!!! Whatever! It's been tough, it's been hard, you eat when your frustrated, angry, sad, happy, bored....shall I continue?

So I tiptoed back into the 100's to obliterate it back in the 200's. Same old, same old. Shall I make a confession for all to hear? *yikes*

Last Saturday, I had a coupon for Hershey's Bliss Milk Chocolates with Almonds - $1.00 off and they were on clearance... How could I pass up this deal? 37 cents!! Well.... couldn't stop thinking about them on that drive home. Almost pulled over to open them up, but then the kids would want some and I didn't want to share. So I rushed home and downed about 5.... then 5 more. By the end of the evening.... I had eaten the entire bag!!! I had eaten the entire bag!!! Usually I ostrich myself and bury my head in the sand forgetting my transgression, but I chose to own it. So, I calculated the points.... 33 points!!! That did it.

I looked myself in the mirror long and hard. It suddenly hit me. Stop telling yourself you have to change and what a failure you are/were. Tell yourself you can do it. So I did... and I did...

I tracked to a T - I ran 13 miles this week alone and didn't snack after 8:30 every night. I still haven't crossed back over to the promised land of the 100's, but am on the precipice. I'm sick of giving in to my lame excuses. Emotions are valid and real, but not reasons to overindulge. It's immature and I'm over it. Just keeping it real.

Tuesday Tune In

2010-05-04T20:00:00.000-07:00

So, it took me a while to get into the swing of things. I would start for a few days, then fizzle and burn out, over and over again. But this week it finally took. Today I got on the scale and I was 199.2!!!!

I am so excited!!! It has been really difficult to get my engine revved. A HUGE weakness of mine is eating out. My husband and I don't drink, smoke or gamble - our vise is restaurants. We love the idea of going out and enjoying the experience - let alone the food. We have drastically changed our eating habits, mostly splitting meals now to save calories, but it still doesn't always help the situation.

Another stumbling block is our finances. It's expensive to buy the lower fat foods - meat, diet foods, even peanut butter! I know my butt needs to be in those WW meetings - they motivate me like no other - but frankly, I can't justify it when we're living off credit cards until work starts again. *sigh* It's frustrating, but I know the program and CAN do it on my own. That's why I need you for support! :-)

A big plus is when my husband does the program with me. When I am weak, he'll be strong and vice versa. I am just glad to be out of the 200's....again.

Here is my meal tracker for the week:

Wed, Apr. 28, 2010
Breakfast:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp 0.2pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
Lunch:
..Bun 2.2pts.
..4oz beef 3.4pts.
..Fries-3oz 2.3pts.
..WW's Colby cheese 1.0pts.
..Mayo-1/2 Tbsp 0.5pts.
Dinner:
..Leftover burger 7.6pts.
..Fries 2pts.
..Bush's baked beans 1/2 c 1.8pts.
Snacks:
..Fiber One-1/2 cup 0.5pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup 0.4pts.
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 1.0 bonus points)
Ran 2.05 miles

Thu, Apr. 29, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14.0pts.
..McD's Kiddie Cone 1.0pts.
Dinner:
..Tikka Masala sauce 1/2 3.0pts.
..Chicken 3.0pts.
..Zucchini 0.0pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
Snacks:
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Whipped Cream 0.5pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 2.0 bonus points)

Fri, Apr. 30, 2010
Breakfast:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Lunch:
..In-n-Out-protein Style with
1/2 serving french fries 12.7pts.
Dinner:
..El pollo 14.1pts.
Snacks:
..Baskin robbins 12pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 15.0 bonus points)

Sat, May. 01, 2010
Breakfast:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Lunch:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Better'n PB-2 Tbsp 1.8pts.
..Tortilla chips-1 oz. 2.6pts.
..Pudding 1.5pts.
..Banana-7" 1.4pts.
..Salad 1pts.
..Apple-medium 0.8pts.
Dinner:
..PT's pizza-2 slices 10pts.
Snacks:
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 0.9pts.
..Chicken 1.5pts.
..Zucchini 0.0pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 0.3 bonus points)
Ran 3.47 miles and Hiked for 30 minutes

Sun, May. 02, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Syrup/SF- 1/4 cup 0.7pts.
..Pancakes 3.0pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
Lunch:
..Chicken 4.5pts.
..Zucchini 0.0pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Coke Zero 0.0pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 0.9pts.
Dinner:
..Green Beans-1/2 cup 0.2pts.
..Corn-2/3 cup 0.6pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Pork Panko chop 7.5pts.
Snacks:
..Golden spoon 1.0pts.
..Strawberries 0.8pts.
..Laughing cow wedge 0.9pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Mon, May. 03, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices 0.9pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp 0.6pts.
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14.0pts.
Dinner:
..Smart 1's Turkey 4.4pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Corn-2/3 cup 0.6pts.
Snacks:
..Fruit 2.8pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)
Ran 4 miles!

As you can see, I clearly had fun on Friday night, but I tracked it all!!! I am glad to be back into my running schedule and tracking is most important. I still don't feel as though I've made enough progress to post a dress pic, but hopefully will soon!!!

Tuesday Tune In

2010-04-20T20:10:00.000-07:00

So here is my progress so far.... I am down 2.4 lbs! Not as much as I hoped, but progress nonetheless! Last Tuesday, I posted my weekly goals and did great on some... not so great on others.

First, let's start with Failures. I didn't track like I wanted to. I did about half a week and the other days were half days, so I'm not posting up my tracker this week since it's incomplete. The no soda thing didn't happen either. Now in my defense, I did cut waaaayyyy back. I was drinking about 2-3 cans a day and I had about 4 cans all week. As the rest of the nation, we are having massive pollen levels here in Vegas. We're surrounded by mountains, so everything just hangs around for days. Without too much history, I've already had 2 sinus surgeries and I caved due to a HUGE sinus migraine. I'm sure it was caffeine withdrawal as well. I did okay on the nighttime snacking - not good, not bad, but okay.

What I am proud of is my exercise. I made a goal to run 2 miles a day/ 6 days a week and I did just that! I did miss one day, but made up for the missing miles on my next 2 runs. So I ran 13.73 miles this week!!! That is a huge step in the right direction.

I'm not posting a pic yet since there isn't much progress yet, but hopefully next week, the scale will be good to me.

Thanks for reading and post up some encouraging words if you have them!

The Dress

2010-04-13T09:33:00.000-07:00

MIA? Where have I been binge....er, I mean, been for the last month? Okay, so the proverbial fan was hit... you can use your own imagery with what hit it. *sigh* Bottom line - no work, no money and a new home = ARRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

This is a struggle. I've had some eye openers this past month seeing that I set myself up for failure. Oh, I know in my previous posts I mentioned slow and steady wins the race and it's all a day at a time, blah, blah, blah. Sounds good, but what you didn't see was this:

or this:

If you've seen my other blog, you may have learned that I am borderline OCD. I love to make lists, check things off my lists, love to organize and make charts. (Yeah, I'm a bit of a geek that way - I'm getting sweaty just thinking about it!) In doing so, I set my standards so high, that I failed.

According to my chart, I had a goal to lose 3 lbs per week - racing to get back to that Lifetimer's Weight.

FAIL!!!
That's so unrealistic - plus the closer you get, the longer it takes.

And that Lofty - but oh, so realistic goal of running 500 miles this year?

FAIL!!!

I have run 35 miles so far (although, I have been walking.. that just isn't part of my resolution). So in order to meet my goal, I need to run about 2 miles a day, everyday for the rest of the year. Not impossible, mind you, but really? REALLY?!?

Then, while taking pics for my other blog, I looked in the mirror and said, "Who's big booty's lookin back at me?"

It's Me! It's Me!!!

So now to the Blog Post title.... The Dress....

Ain't she a beaut?

Well, I found her at Costco and thought it was just too cute to pass up. I also envisioned the skinny Jenny Minny prancing around in that dress. So, the cogs were turning and I am going to use this dress as a new photo progress pictorial of my journey back. Hopefully the dress will still be in style!

No more lofty goals, no more charts (that one will be hard), only small What About Bob-like baby steps. This week begins my journey anew. Simple, simple goals for this week only:

Exercise everyday
Water, water, water - no more Coke Zero (a scream emitting from the recesses of my mind)
No late night snacking - should be easy
And TRACK!!! If you bite it, write it.

So here I am today - Tuesday, my weigh in day. Topping the scales back at 204.4. I'm owning it. This is me in my dress. And no, I'm not pregnant. *sigh*

With 35.4 lbs to get back to my Lifetime Weight - an my ultimate goal of 161 lbs. Totalling 43.4 lbs to lose.

"Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement." C.S. Lewis

Partyin' like it's 1999

2010-04-12T18:02:00.000-07:00

I've been away for a while with a bit to tow - will fill in more on that in my next post, but I've been partying with these gals on my other blog and thought I'd invite you all as well. It's a great way to connect with other Mom's like you ... and me!

A bit about me.... as I mentioned before, I write another blog about homey, crafty things - and you can click on the "Who's Jen?" to learn all about me. This is actually my first blog I started when I began my journey with Weight Loss and Weight Watchers. It's a constant struggle and this is my way to voice my successes and frustrations along the way. I have a lot to learn and a long way to go, but I'm getting there.

If you haven't checked out the UBP - please do. It is so much fun!! There's even prizes to win - WOOO HOOO!!!

The Top three Prizes I would love are
US6– Hand Stamped Personalized Necklace valued at $48 The Double Stacked A Lot Of Love Provided by: Kristen's Custom Creations,
US18– Goodie Basket for Mom Provided by:Healthy Moms,
USC17: A $200 Apple gift certificate, provided by CmomGo
and US32– $25 Target Gift Card! Provided by:The Frugal Novice

Other prizes that would totally rock are:
US7, US8, US49, USC3, USC15, USC19

Did I Mention.....

2010-03-03T20:07:00.000-08:00

that I'm a klutz?!? My incredibly awesome and creative mother is visiting and preparing for her arrival, I cleaned my house like nobody's business. In the process, this happened:

I BROKE MY TOE!
First and foremost - I must apologize for my lack of mani's/pedi's shown on this site. And this picture is no exception! Forgive my toes. Now onto this beautiful bluey visage before you, one may think some incredible 'feet' made this occur. Oh no... my clumsiness comes with simplicity at times. Yes, I broke my toe walking up the stairs. That's it y'all - nothing fancy. It couldn't have been during an amazing activity like a marathon.

Never once did I think I'd be posting my toe on my blog. Now this is definitely going to hinder my exercise for a while. Bummer fore shore!

Seeing the struggles I've been facing this past month - emotionally, financially, physically with illness and now this... I must admit, I'm stopped cold in my tracks - no progress at all. It's time to just stop for a minute and let the dust settle. BREATHE! Enjoy this week with my mom, fill my glass with some much needed love and laughter and hit again next Wednesday.

Don't get me wrong - I'm not off to eat cookie dough or anything, but, I need a moment to pause .... with consciousness....

So I didn't...

2010-02-25T13:17:00.000-08:00

I didn't track this past week - zero, zilch, nada!!! I barely exercised. AND I didn't get to weigh in (room mommy duties). No track + no exercise + no weigh in = 1 fat feeling funky female! Should I add the word ferocious? 'Cuz I am mad at myself. My scale at home is reflecting the neglecting and I am so utterly disappointed in myself.

If you've read my other blog, you'll know how much of a klutz I am. On Tuesday, we went up to the mountains to let my boys play in the snow. Well, I tripped and jacked up my right quad something fierce. I imagine a huge bruise is brewing as I type. What I SHOULD do is make sure it's not injured, but I didn't. I got out and ran. Only intended to run a little bit, but my overconfidence pushed me to run 3.75 miles when I knew I shouldn't have. Now, I'm paying for it. My hope is that this pain is only temporary and it will push my healing along faster and I'll be out and running again in a few days. Only time will tell.

What lesson did I learn? That I need to stop obsessing. Stop and breathe. Give yourself grace - see how far you've come and bask in that feeling. The night before our snow trip, we were looking for clothes to wear. I tried on my old FAT jeans and I'm still swimming in them! That helped me to see that while I am up in my weight, I am not as far fallen as I feel at times.

Permanent weight loss needs lifestyle change - which is hard to make and maintain. Habit draws us back and interruptions in life will happen. I need to set realistic goals for myself to help me create new habits for long lasting change. Focus on today - that's all you can and should handle.

Emotional Eating

2010-02-21T20:17:00.000-08:00

Emotional eating is such a struggle. I touched on a bit of my struggle here, but still have hurdles to overcome. As I briefly mentioned in my earlier post, when I first lost my 64 pounds, I didn't face any emotional battles. We were fine financially, job stability, even were pursuing buying a new home. I was able to workout without obstacles and I followed Weight Watchers to a T!

After we moved into our home in April, things started to change. My husband, a touring drummer, was gone for 6 weeks to Australia and South Africa, leaving me alone in our new home taking care of our 2 boys who were missing Daddy terribly! I didn't have a babysitter to call - and family was 2000 miles away. To add to the struggle, my grandmother was put in hospice and eventually passed during this time and I was at a place where I couldn't fly home to be there for my own family.

That put me in a downward spiral. It was ugly, y'all. If the kids asked for gummy worms for dinner - that's what they got. Days went by and we didn't leave the house - didn't get out of our PJ's. I lost my fire for weight loss. My progress charts clearly show all the upheavals we faced over this past year.

Cut to this past fall, just when I start to get back into the swing of things, my husband learns that his regular gig is put on hiatus, until ???..... unknown. WHAT!!?? Right here at the holidays?? Right before Santa's supposed to come? Luckily, as is common in our industry, we stored up some nuts since it's literally feast or famine in a musician's life.

As of today, we are down to our last pennies. We're scraping the barrel folks and I have to say, that ole 'I don't give a rat's a**' mentality is creeping back in. Not only that, but it's hard financially to buy the healthy things. The healthy peanut butter is a whole dollar more than the low-fat! To put the cherry on top of it all, I've been battling a massive sinus infection/chest cold for literally 2 weeks now - which I credit to this whole funk as well.

This week's tracking didn't happen. This week's workout plan wasn't done. Taxes are coming due soon (and self employed musicians get robbed I tell ya!), my son's birthday is in a few weeks and we see some job opportunities on the horizon, but the timing is not quite there. I'm deflated..... so, now what?

So, now is the time to refocus. Stop looking at what's ahead 3 months and giving up. Just focus on today - focus on what your meal is now - focus on getting thru this workout now - focus on finishing today on plan and not wavering.

"It's better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backwards."

Weigh In and Journal 2/9 - 2/15/10

2010-02-16T15:32:00.000-08:00

This week was a bear! I started getting sick on Wednesday and by the weekend, I was feeling as if an elephant were sitting on my chest. That didn't bode well for my 30 day Shred Challenge and I missed two days. I also failed in my running goal of 10 miles this week, only earning a mere 1.5 miles thanks to this chest cold. Top it off with taxes to finish and a houseguest and I didn't accomplish as much as I wished.

One thing I did do was follow my leader's recommendation and ate 2 extra points per day and boy did it pay on at the scale today! I am down another 1.8 lbs! That's a 9.8 total from my restart in January and a whopping 45.8 total overall. Yeah!!!!

This week, if my cold allows, I will shred daily and get in my 10 miles. Here's my Journal...

Wed, Feb. 10, 2010
Breakfast:
..Apple-medium .8pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
Lunch:
..Ball park turkey dog .9pts.
..Whitewheat hot dog 1.1pts.
..Green Beans-1/2 cup .2pts.
..Bush's baked beans 1/2 c 2.1pts.
..Hersheys xtra dark-1 piece 1.0pts.
Dinner:
..Chicken 3pts.
..Bush's baked beans 1/2 c 2.1pts.
..Fries-3 oz 5.1pts.
..Lettuce 0pts.
Snacks:
..Baked lays BBQ 2.2pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 1.7pts.

Total: 24.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Thu, Feb. 11, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Fiber 1 cottage cheese-1/2 c 1.0pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.
Lunch:
..Smart taste pasta-1 c 2.9pts.
..Fancher sketti-2/3 cup 5pts.
Dinner:
..Green Beans-1/2 cup .2pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Smart 1's pot roast 3.4pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Smart 1's PB cup sundae 3.2pts.
..Apple-medium .7pts.

Total: 24.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Fri, Feb. 12, 2010
Breakfast:
..Western bagel 1.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..WW's Cream Cheese 1pts.
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14pts.
Dinner:
..Progresso Italian veggie 0.4pts.
..Smart taste pasta-1 c 1.2pts.
..Fancher sketti 2.5pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.

Total: 24.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sat, Feb. 13, 2010
Breakfast:
..English Muffin 1.3pts.
..Coffee w/creamer .7pts.
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14pts.
..Golden spoon 1pts.
Dinner:
..Whitewheat Bun 1.4pts.
..Hamburger 4.1pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 1pts.
..Mayo-1/2 Tbsp .5pts.
Snacks:

Total: 24.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sun, Feb. 14, 2010
Breakfast:
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup .6pts.
..Whitewheat-1 slice 0.7pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
Lunch:
..Chili-1 cup 4pts.
..Corn Casserole-1/6 3.3pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp .4pts.
..Tortilla chips-1 oz. 1 pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp .4pts.
Dinner:
..Chili-1 cup 4.6pts.
..Corn Casserole-1/6 3.3pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 1.5pts.
..WW's chocolate coconut 1.0pts.

Total: 24.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Mon, Feb. 15, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.
Lunch:
..Turkey sausage 4.5pts.
..Parmesan couscous-1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Breaded zucchini 1.4pts.
..Ranch 1 Tbsp 1.1pts.
Dinner:
..Chili-1 cup 4.6pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 1pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp .4pts.
..Tortilla chips-1 oz. 1.3pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Tortilla 2.2pts.
Snacks:

Total: 24.0pts.

Journal 2/3 - 2/8 and Weigh In

2010-02-10T10:48:00.000-08:00

So, let me tell you how disgusted I am!!! I only lost .4 this week!!! My current weight is 187.2. Now don't get me wrong. All loss is a good thing, but if you knew how hard I worked out and stuck to the program - mathematically, it doesn't add up. When I crunched my calories in versus calories out - I should have had about a 2 lb loss. I ran/walked around 12 miles this week, plus did the 30 day shred challenged every day. My eating was on point and only ate my activity points when I needed to.

I went up to my trusty leader and you won't believe what he told me.... I didn't eat enough! He suggested I add 2 points per day for this next week and see how that works. I would have never in a million years thought someone would tell me to eat more.

Basically, the thought process is with all this activity I'm doing, my body is in starvation mode and is holding on to every morsel it can so as to nourish this body. Makes sense, but it goes against my current thought process. BUT I WILL DO IT!

Here's my journal for this past week:

Wed, Feb. 03, 2010
Breakfast:
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Red suger grape jelly 0.4pts.
..Coke Zero 0pts.
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14pts.
Dinner:
..Rice-1/2 cup 2pts.
..Green Beans-1/2 cup .2pts.
..Chicken 3pts.
Snacks:..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 1.5pts.
..Coffee w/creamer .7pts.
..Golden spoon 1pts.
..Whipped Cream 1.5pts.

Total: 28.0pts. (4.0 activity points)

Thu, Feb. 04, 2010
Breakfast:
..Kashi-3/4 cup 1.5pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup .4pts.
..Coffee w/creamer .7pts.
..Fiber One-1/2 cup .3pts.
Lunch:
..Rice-1/2 cup 2pts.
..Chicken 5pts.
Dinner:
..Stuffing-1/2 cup 2pts.
..Smart 1's Turkey 4.4pts.
..Green Beans-1/2 cup .2pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries .8pts.
..Golden spoon 1pts.
..Coffee w/creamer .7pts.
..Baked lays BBQ 2.2pts.

Total: 22.0pts.

Fri, Feb. 05, 2010
Breakfast:
..Applesauce 1/2 cup .6pts.
..Coffee w/creamer .7pts.
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..English Muffin 1.3pts.
Lunch:
..Strawberries .8pts.
..Noodles 3.5pts.
..Chicken 2.5pts.
Dinner:
..Freschetta pizza-3 slices 11.1pts.
Snacks:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Baked lays BBQ 2.2pts.
..Dreyers sugar free vanilla-1/2 cup 1.6pts.
..Hersheys reduced sugar syrup-2 Tbsp 0.8pts.

Total: 28.3pts. (4.0 activity points + 2.3 bonus)

Sat, Feb. 06, 2010
Breakfast:
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Fiber 1 cottage cheese-1/2 c 1.0pts.
Lunch:
..Whitewheat Bun 1.4pts.
..Ball park .9pts.
..Baked lays BBQ 2.2pts.
..Progresso Veggie/noodle .4pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Apple-medium .8pts.
Dinner:
..Homemade outback chicken 4.9pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Broccoli 0pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Honey Mustard-1 Tbsp .4pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 1.6pts.

Total: 22.0pts.

Sun, Feb. 07, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
Lunch:
..Café Rio 14pts.
Dinner:
..Progresso Italian veggie 0.4pts.
..Chicken 3pts.
..Broccoli 0pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup .95pts.
Snacks:
..Baked lays BBQ 3.3pts.
..Strawberries .8pts.
..Whipped Cream .5pts.

Total: 26.0pts. (4.0 activity points)

Mon, Feb. 08, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
..Fiber 1 cottage cheese-1/2 c 1.0pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
Lunch:
..Chicken 3pts.
..Tikka Masala sauce 1.5pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Broccoli 0pts.
Dinner:
..Broccoli 0pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Chicken 3pts.
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.
Snacks:

Total: 22.0pts.

My Progress

2010-02-03T10:31:00.000-08:00

Here are some progress charts to see how I did over the past few years

12/30/08 169.6 (-61.4)

12/23/08 171.6 (-59.4)

12/16/08 171.8 (-59.2)

12/9/08 171.8 (-59.2)

12/2/08 174.4 (-56.6)

11/25/08 176.4 (-54.6)

11/18/08 178.4 (-52.6)

11/11/08 178.2 (-52.8)

11/4/08 179.2 (-51.8)

10/28/08 181.8 (-49.2)

10/21/08 183.6 (47.4 lbs total)

10/14/08 185.4 (-45.6 lbs total)

10/7/08 184.6 ( -46.4 lbs total)

9/30/09 187.4 (-43.6 lbs total)

9/23/08 190.6 (-40.4 lbs total)

9/16/08 190.8 (-40.2 lbs total)

9/9/08 192 (-39 lbs total)

9/2/08 193.2 (-37.8 lbs total)

8/26/08 196.2 (-34.8 lbs total)

8/19/08 198.6 (-32.4 lbs total)

8/12/08 198.6 (-32.4 lbs total)

8/5/08 202 (-29 lbs total)

7/29/08 204.6 (-26.4 total)

7/22/08 206.8 (-24.2 total)

7/15/08 207.2 (10%! -23.8 total)

7/8/08 210.2 (-20.8 lbs total)

7/1/08 212.4 (-18.6 lbs total)

6/24/08 217 (-14 lbs total)

6/17/08 220.2 (-10.8 lbs total)

6/10/08 222.8 (-8.2 lbs)

6/4/08 231 lbs!!! YIKES!!

1/13/08 168.4 (-62.6) GOAL MET!!!!

Here's my current progress

Journal 1/27 - 2/1

2010-02-03T10:29:00.000-08:00

Mon, Feb. 01, 2010
Breakfast:
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Knotts jelly -1 Tbsp .5pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
Lunch:
..Chipotle-1 taco 10pts.
Dinner:
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Salad-pine nut feta+oil 3.8pts.
..Parmesan Cheese .5pts.
..High fiber tortilla .4pts.
..Corn Relish-1 Tbsp .4pts.
..Coke Zero 0pts.
Snacks:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.7pts.
..Apple-medium .8pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sun, Jan. 31, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
Lunch:
..Steak 3pts.
..Rice-1/2 cup 2pts.
..Corn Relish-1 Tbsp .4pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Sour Cream-1 Tbsp .4pts.
..Lettuce 0pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 1pts.
Dinner:
..Panda Rice 4.2pts.
..Veggies 0.1pts.
..String bean chicken 3.6pts.
Snacks:
..Golden spoon 1pts.
..Apple-medium .4pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 2.9pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sat, Jan. 30, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..English Muffin 1.3pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup .6pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
Lunch:
..Steak 3pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..Rice-1/2 cup 2pts.
..Tortilla 2.2pts.
..Corn Relish-1 Tbsp .4pts.
Dinner:
..Baked lays BBQ 2.2pts.
..Ball park .9pts.
..Whitewheat hot dog 1.1pts.
Snacks:
..Peach .5pts.
..Golden spoon 1pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 2.1pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Fri, Jan. 29, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
..Cheese -2 Tbsp 1pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Sausage-1 oz .8pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
Lunch:
..Dads bean soup-1 cup 5.25pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Celery 0pts.
..WW's Cream Cheese 1pts.
Dinner:
..Ball park .9pts.
..Breaded zucchini 1.4pts.
..Ranch 1 Tbsp 1.1pts.
..Whitewheat hot dog 1.1pts.
..Baked lays BBQ 1.1pts.
Snacks:
..Smart 1's PB cup sundae 3.2pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Thu, Jan. 28, 2010
Breakfast:
..Blueberries .5pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
Lunch:
..Breaded zucchini 1.4pts.
..Chicken salad -100g 4pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.1pts.
..Ranch 1 Tbsp 1.1pts.
..Celery 0pts.
Dinner:
..Dads bean soup-1 cup 5.25pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Tortilla 2.2pts.
..Chocolate chips-15 g 2pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Wed, Jan. 27, 2010
Breakfast:
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
Lunch:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Chicken salad -100g 4pts.
..Peas- 1/2 cup .6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
Dinner:
..Smart taste pasta-1 c 2.9pts.
..Meatballs 2.7pts.
..Barilla sauce-1/2 c .9pts.
..Zucchini 0pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp .5pts.
Snacks:
..Cucumber 0pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge .9pts.
..WW's cookie 1pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Journal 1/20 - 25

2010-02-02T20:09:00.000-08:00

Mon, Jan. 25, 2010
Breakfast:
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.
Lunch:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Chicken salad -100g 4pts.
..Fries 3.3pts.
..Grapes 1pts.
Dinner:
..Tortilla 2.2pts.
..Lettuce 0pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp .5pts.
..FF Rasp Dressing -2 Tbsp 1pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Pine nuts- 1 Tbsp 1.1pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
Snacks:

Total: 23.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sun, Jan. 24, 2010
Breakfast:
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Blueberries 1pts.
Lunch:
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Chicken salad -100g 4pts.
..Grapes 1pts.
..Baked lays BBQ 1.1pts.
Dinner:
..Smart taste pasta-1 c 2.9pts.
..Chicken 3pts.
..Zucchini 0pts.
..Tomatoes 3/4 cup .5pts.
Snacks:
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge .9pts.
..WW's carrot cake 1.3pts.
..Blueberries 1pts.

Total: 23.1pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Sat, Jan 23. , 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Honey nut cheerios-3/4 cup 1.9pts.
..Almond milk 1/2 cup .4pts.
..Fiber One-1/2 cup .5pts.
Lunch:
..Whitewheat Bun 1.4pts.
..Broccoli 0pts.
..Au gratin taters 2pts.
..Pork 3pts.
Dinner:
..Near east alm rice 1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Peas- 1/2 cup .8pts.
..Pork 4pts.
Snacks:
..Strawberries .8pts.
..WW's carrot cake 1.3pts.
..Saltines -5 crackers 1.2pts.
..Laughing cow wedge .9pts.
..Whipped Cream .5pts.

Total: 22.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Fri, Jan. 22, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Clementine 1pts.
Lunch:
..Pizzamore-2 slices 7.6pts.
..Lettuce 0pts.
..Light bals vin-2 Tbsp .6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
Dinner:
..Au gratin taters 4pts.
..Pork tenderloin 4pts.
..Broccoli 0pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Pudding 1.3pts.

Total: 23.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Thu, Jan. 21, 2010
Breakfast:
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
..Egg Substitute .6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
Lunch:
..Zucchini 0pts.
..Tomatoes 3/4 cup .5pts.
..Parmesan couscous-1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Chicken 3pts.
Dinner:
..Pork Roast 2.1pts.
..Green Beans-1/2 cup .2pts.
..Au gratin taters 4pts.
..Pudding 1.5pts.
Snacks:
..Applesauce 1/2 cup .6pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..Costco Bread-1 slice 1.4pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.

Total: 23.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

Wed, Jan. 20, 2010
Breakfast:
..Bacon 2 slices .9pts.
..Coffee w/creamer 1.4pts.
..Nature's Own Fiber-2 .5pts.
..Jelly-1 Tbsp .2pts.
Lunch:
..Lettuce 0pts.
..Pine nuts- 1 Tbsp 1.1pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp .5pts.
..FF Rasp Dressing -2 Tbsp 1pts.
..Black beans-1/2 cup 1.4pts.
..High fiber tortilla .4pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
..Parmesan Cheese .3pts.
Dinner:
..Parmesan couscous-1/2 cup 1.9pts.
..Zucchini 0pts.
..Feta-1 Tbsp .5pts.
..Turkey sausage 4.5pts.
..Olive oil-1 tsp 1.2pts.
Snacks:
..Jolly time Popcorn 1.2pts.
..WW's Yogurt 1.4pts.
..Applesauce 1/2 cup .6pts.
..Costco Bread-2 2.2pts.
..Honey-1/2 Tbsp .6pts.

Total: 23.0pts. (minus 0.0 bonus points)

I'm back at it!!!

2010-02-02T19:52:00.000-08:00

After about 6 months of struggling, I'm finally back on track. Read about my struggles here.

When I wrote that post - I thought I was about 15 lbs from goal..... Well... The scale never lies!!!

I'm actually 195.2 lbs!! *YIKES* That's 26.2 lbs from my WW's lifetime goal weight. What a kick in the patootey! All that to say - it definitely peeled the scales from my eyes and I'm am more motivated and driven than ever to get back on track. At weigh in today - I was at 187.6 - that's 7.6 gone in 2 weeks - not too shabby.

Since we're talking numbers, my personal goal I'm setting for myself is 161. That will give me a cushion below my lifetime weight to be able to live reasonably without ever going back over goal. Making Lifetime for me was really easy, but maintaining it was my struggle.

To help me along in this journey (this is #3 for me), I am committing to posting my weekly journal of my eats. I've also taken part in Pudget's 30 day Shred Challenge, as well as striving for my New Year's Resolution of running 500 miles this year. I'm in a deficit so far, but plan to make it up little by little.

Here are some recent progress pics - sorry for the disheveled look, but I just worked out.

Note the uni-boob. Got those puppies squished into 2 sports bras. Uber attractive!!

That's as real as I can get - so scary to post the real numbers, but hey - I've got to hold myself accountable and will hopefully encourage someone else along the way.

I MADE GOAL!

2009-01-13T16:11:00.000-08:00

WOO HOO!! YIPPEE!! HALLELUJAH!

First off, it's been way too long since I've last posted, but that's another story...

I can't believe it! I was very nervous about today. I was afraid that I wouldn't reach goal. On Dec 30th, I was .6 away from goal. The next day we traveled back east to visit family for 2 weeks. While away, I was diligent with keeping on track with a few play days here and there. It was vacation and I was going to enjoy, but within control.

The first half of my trip was wonderful and super easy since my mother is following WW's as well. We were able to encourage each other and I didn't even feel the need to stray. However, the second half was a lot tougher. My in laws admittedly LOVE food - it's the center of all their gatherings. The few mentions of, "Oh, you can have a bite..." or, "One glass of sweet tea won't hurt.." was tough to back away from for a few reasons. One being the people pleaser I am, I didn't want to offend, but secondly - that temptation was right there, but I kept my focus and stayed strong. I also kept my commitment to run while I was away and ran 15 miles over the 2 weeks.

To top it off, I flew yesterday, so I was sure that I'd be retaining water after my 4 hr flight, so when I found out I made goal today, I have to admit that tears filled my eyes and the whole room cheered for me! I did it! I REALLY DID IT! And do you know what? It wasn't that hard.

It's quite simple really. You're given the tools from WW's and all you have to do is follow them. If you bite it, write it. Measure everything you put in your mouth and be sure to move more. It's very easy if you follow the program. No shortcuts, no alterations to the program.

If I am able to accomplish the 62 lbs lost, then I believe anyone can. And as my leader asks if it feels good and did I win it or earn it....... It feels great and I earned every pound lost. And I don't ever want it back.

Finished my first 5 K!!!

2008-10-25T20:56:00.000-07:00

Today was a huge accomplishment for me. I ran my first 5K race (without stopping) and beat my training times. The official results were:

135th place TIME: 30:07 average 9:42 mile

I placed 9th in my age division - not bad for a first race!! I got choked up about 3 times - seeing my boys on the sidelines cheering me on definitely added to that! My brother shared with me that when he finished his race - there was a huge pride factor. I have to say that I totally agree. It's almost surreal coming from a background of never running. Seeing my place in my age division makes we want to start training for another one!!!!

My weight loss is a huge factor in this. I am 2.6 lbs away from breaking 50 lbs. My weigh in is Tuesday and I'd love to combine this high from today with a huge loss, but I'll be happy with any loss.

My final goal is changing too. I've been getting comments about not losing too much, but I'd love to be able to sit down and not feel the 'rolls' and be able to abandon the constant sucking in I do. I may set a realistic goal and see how far I can go. Initially my leader suggested I get down to 175, but I think I'd like to see me at 165-169. I think that's obtainable, but I will assess as I go.

4 month progress 184.6

2008-10-25T20:54:00.000-07:00

Halfway There!

2008-09-02T13:26:00.000-07:00

Bye-bye 200's!

2008-08-13T12:27:00.000-07:00

As my leader says, I'm proud to be called a loser! I have officially broken the 200 lb barrier! I will not allow myself to be this heavy ever again. My husband is a big loser too - he's lost almost 30 lbs since the beginning of the year. We keep asking ourselves - "Why didn't we do this sooner?" I'm noticing us feeling healthier and more attractive and our confidence is just soaring. I'm proud of us and I'm almost halfway there.

New pics - 2 month progress

2008-08-05T11:07:00.000-07:00

Today, I weighed in and have lost a total of 29 lbs and 7 inches in my waist. With all this running I've been doing, I had set unrealistic goals because I am soooooooooo close to breaking 200! I was a bit disappointed, but my wonderful leader Matt reminded me of how far I've come. I had a 2.6 loss this week alone which is HUGE! I'm glad to be under the tutelage of someone who will be real with me and not puff me up with false complements. I am proud of how far I've come and I need to recognize my success thus far and not set the bar too high for myself.

Flickr

2008-07-29T20:43:00.001-07:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Broke 25 lbs!!!!

2008-07-29T14:53:00.000-07:00

So, it finally happened..... I broke the almighty 25!! Not only has that goal been attained, but as I mentioned in a previous post, I have recently taken up running. It was only a few months ago when I was wearing a black woolen boot to protect my stress fractured foot. To top it off, I also suffered from plantar fasciitis. But one day, my husband encouraged me to run the track with him - an entire mile. I considered having him checked for delusional fantasies, but much to my chagrin, he was serious. So I was off..... and I did it!!

That sparked something in me. As I ran, I found an inspiration. I gave birth to 2 beautiful, but HUGE boys. Both were 10 lb babies. When I felt that runner's wall approaching, I thought, if I birthed those giants, surely I can complete this mile.

Yesterday, I completed 2 miles for the first time (and yes - it was without stopping!) I was alone and could care less about the odd looks I received as I crossed my imaginary finish line with my arms hoisted in the air hearing the theme from Rocky playing in my head. I couldn't believe that I had finished. It gave me such power and confidence. I'm actually considering running a 5K. Who knows?

Yikes! Pictures!

2008-07-15T14:08:00.003-07:00

Very scary to post some of this, but here it goes:

Me at my heaviest - close to 240 lbs

After my first weigh in

First weigh in profile

1 month progress - 212 lbs

1 month profile

I REACHED MY (first) 10%!!!

2008-07-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

So today is a monumental moment for me. I've reached my first 10% today at my meeting. I've lost 23.8 lbs to date - gone FOREVER!!!! I'm proud of myself for working so hard to achieve this. One thing I'm learning - you must track everything. You must measure everything.

Something else I've accomplished that I never thought I would be able to do is run! I started running the track last week and have gradually worked my run up to 2 miles (not without stopping for a brief heart attack) and hope to continue. I never thought I'd call myself a runner, but I'm starting to think a bit differently these days.

An Imperfect Fit

2008-07-05T21:17:00.000-07:00

A month ago, I joined weight watchers......again. The last time I ventured thru this program was back in 2001 and I was somewhat successful (I lost 26 lbs) however - I WORKED the program. Any loophole, any trick and I tried it. From not counting points for certain foods to barely eating on the day of weigh ins and pigging out after. BUT (and it's a big one) I didn't make the lifestyle change. All it took for me to fail was one trip back home - during the holidays - around all the good eats and treats and I was off the band wagon.

So now here I am, seven years and 2 kids later plus some extra poundage and I'm back on track, but this time feels different. I've recognized that this is a change - for life - forever. I will be counting points - forever. I will be watching what I eat - forever.....but it doesn't seem like punishment or like a diet. So far I have lost 18.6 lbs during this month and I feel wonderful. I feel attractive! The more I lose, the more motived and committed I am to reach my goal! I'm about 5 lbs away from my first 10%. This time, I WILL make lifetime and I WILL NOT get any this heavy again. (Is that the them from Rocky playing the background?)

So please enjoy my musings about this journey. The good (the losses), the bad (actually posting my real weight), and the ugly (hopefully few). Share with me your stories as well.